And So It Begins…

The semester is now in full swing, leaving me little time for creative endeavours. During the semester I don’t allow myself to read any good books (it’s too distracting), and often after writing mind-numbing law essays, I simply don’t have any juice left for blogging. If I were exceptionally good at anything else, I would quit school. Maybe someday I will get so good at writing that I’ll get to quit my day job and write all the time for exorbitant amounts of money, but for now it’s just not my reality. Don’t misunderstand me, I do enjoy learning, and I have a lot of interest in what I’m studying. I suppose it’s that childhood dream that I woud grow up and do something more creative and expressive.

I recently got an email from Dan, who is trying to decide what to do with his life after the Marine Corps. He writes: ” I think I have 2 personalities.. one side of me wants to stop bad guys and help people.. the other wants to work a low-key job like artist, scientist, or college professor and just surf and chill.”
Yep, he’s eloquent. But I think he has the same dilemma that a lot of us face at some point in our lives. Do what you think will make you happy, or do what you think you should do.

For now, I’ll remind myself of why I’m going to college. 1) To get a job because I am not cut out to stay home forever. 2) To help people. 3) To provide for my family if something happens to Dan. When you are raised by a mother who lost her husband and was left with 5 kids and no education, this concept is instilled from birth. You go to school. End of story.

I still say “when I grow up…”. I think I’ll keep saying that until I realize that I’m doing exactly what I was meant to do.

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